It seems like the roller coaster that I am on has taken some interesting twists and turns this week, but God was not caught off guard and knew every twist and turn before it came.
I read Psalm 16 this morning and it is a beautiful reminder of God’s goodness to me – even though things around me are hard.
Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge. I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord; I have no good apart from you.”
As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.
The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure.
For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,or let your holy one see corruption.
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
The parts that are in bold print are the ones that stood out to me this morning. I am so thankful that God has given me a “Porthole” into the future. He has given me a glimpse into the future – enough to know that time with my dad is short – only God knows the remaining number of days that my dad has left – that information would me too much for me. But out of His love for me, He has shown me that I need to make the most of the time that I have with my father, especially while his mind is still sharp.
God has not thrown me a detour – it is the path of life that He has marked out for me since before the beginning of time. On that path is joy and peace and while it doesn’t feel like that at the moment, I can trust God’s word – he tells me that He will not abandon me, He will provide for me and He is my fortress, my rock.
God has given me a beautiful inheritance – right now that includes a glimpse into the future and seeing the times with my dad as more precious and giving me the opportunity to speak the truth more boldly into his life. It is just enough of a glimpse to give me focus and direction, but not more than I can handle.
God is indeed been gracious to me! I am thankful for my “porthole” into the future.